Saturday, January 3, 2015

16/365: I am so in love with you

I am so in love with you it makes my head hurt, and we both know that never happens. I am so in love with you it makes my tiny fingers tremble and my knees quake. I am so in love with you the seconds we spend apart feel like little eternities stretching themselves into ropes around my neck until I can hardly breathe anymore. I am so in love with you the seconds we spend together pass so quickly I can barely get my grasp on them. I am so in love with you and I knew it when I saw my reflection at the end of the hall and I noticed I had a smile on my face. I am so in love with you I watch you when you sleep and the way your eyelids flutter and it makes my heart jump through my chest. I am so in love with you and the way your voice can calm even the wildest of storms in my mind. I am so in love with you and the way your hands always find their way back to me. I am so in love with you I want to erase every previous memory and rewire my brain to only see you. I am so in love with you that whenever I'm with you it's almost like you're under a spotlight and all of my other surroundings go blurry but you are in focus; you are always in focus. I am so in love with you that it makes me want to plan my wedding and buy a dress and walk down the aisle to you. I am so in love with you I want to care for you when your mother can't. I am so in love with you I call you sometimes just to listen to your breathing because it's a melody I could listen to for the rest of my life. I am so in love with you your laugh is a symphony that I want to give a standing ovation to until my legs can no longer stand the weight of all my love for you. I am so in love with you I want to spend my every waking minute with you. I am so in love with you it scares me what I would do for you. I am so in love with you I want to watch your lips make their way into a smile every minute of my life. I am so in love with you I want to buy you things and write you poems and scream it from a mountain top just so everyone knows. I am so in love with you I text you at 4:30 am just to tell you that you're on my mind, because there isn't a single millisecond of the day that you aren't taking up space in my brain. I am so in love with you I want to give you everything I have, and more. I am so in love with you I want everybody to know that I am your girl. I am so in love with you and the way you purse your lips right before you hit the baseball because it reminds me of how I prepared myself for you long before you came but when you finally did, it was faster and more powerful than I could have ever practiced for. I am so in love with you I would cross every ocean and spend the rest of my life walking to you if that meant I got to see you smile one last time. I am so in love with you I want to share my highs, lows, and in betweens with you. I am so in love with you at age 19 that it makes me feel woozy thinking about how in love with you I will be at age 72. I am so in love with you that I have memorized the curve of your back and your stubble on your face like it is braille and I can read you all day long. I am so in love with you I crave your kiss like it is water and I have been stuck in a desert for my entire life. I am so in love with you in the most pure form. I am so in love with you, I never want to feel anything else.